Disclaimer: This post has little to do with the thematic of the blog but… Because I tend to be the rebel that breaks with it… Here we go!
When we started this blog, I was a woman escaping from her past. A couple of years ago, I went through a stage of life that scarred me emotionally. After so much pain and disappointment, I wanted to retreat and give myself some time and space to reassess my priorities and work on self-love and forgiveness. I had a couple of months before my son was born and I wanted to be the best version of myself before his arrival. I proceeded to delete social media and reduce the number of people I kept in touch with. I wanted to make sure that the people involved in our lives were loving, caring, and genuinely excited for the both of us, my son and I.
When Carrot offered me to be a writer for the blog, I was petrified! This meant that I had to open THAT box again, the one I had sealed so many years ago. I was nervous and I didn’t think I could make it. I didn’t want to expose myself or my son and I was afraid to be scrutinized by the world all over again. As you can imagine, I declined his offer at first. However, being the persistent and encouraging man that he is, Carrot finally convinced me. I had my conditions though, and this came with conversations filled with anxiety and doubt, “I don’t want to show my face nor my son’s,” I said. If you have noticed, all of the members of theDIHEDRAL have a headshot, except for me. I was very adamant about this and, being the amazing friends they are, they respected my decision.
Carrot wrote on our throwback for theDIHEDRAL’s anniversary:
Of all the posts that Gaia has posted my favorite has to be Bodies and the Importance of Feeling. When you look at Gaia’s body of work on theDIHEDRAL, you see the steps taken from someone who was reluctant to put herself out there, to someone sharing some of the most sacred details of her journey. This post is truly Gaia to the core…honest, brave, enduring!
All of this is true and it has been possible thanks to you. The love, support, and encouragement that you have given us has, inadvertently, opened up my arms once again. The locks have progressively opened and every day I feel more confident about myself and the way that I relate with the world. Thank you for respecting our creative choices and thank you for accepting my family. The love that you give my son and I is something that I value dearly and hold with responsibility. Today, I want to open up a little bit more and share with you something that I had not in the past. I want to give a face to all the stories and keep connecting with you.
I am proud of the safe space that WE have created and the loving, supportive, and caring community that we are building, together. Thank you. Thank you. Thank YOU for reading and holding our hands along the way.
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